Aqilah Razali

Briefly my life so far...

Hey there! This page is a bit self-indulgent. But, I hope you find it interesting!🙂

1997
Born on Thursday, 23rd January during the fast month, Ramadhan. My mom said she needed to ride an ambulance to give birth to me

2006-2010
I was 7 years old this year and was so excited to attend school. Since I was so young, my mom has loved telling me about the good stuff I would experience during school. I love studying, volunteering to help teachers, and being active in all sorts of events. Since I love studying so much, I usually ranked first. However, little did I know what was waiting for me when my age was just still a single digit. Long story short, I had a conflict with a good friend, and from there I had trust issues. The extrovert became an introvert in a short amount of time. I remember one friend told me 'You are just an attention seeker' 'People want to be your friend just because you are smart and got more A's than us'. Which offended me big time, and made me lose motivation to study.

Despite the lack of motivation, Alhamdulillah I score my UPSR 5As. My mom submitted an application to an all-girls boarding school. Thanks to all the achievements and my active days in primary school. I got enrolled.

2010-2014
In an all-girls boarding school, my very insecure and not friendly personality is still there. In my head, all I could think was... 'Just survive this, and make my parent proud'. I could not make any close friends and I am detached from every single person who try to be nice to me. I push them away. I am easily misunderstood and I do not have any desire to correct what was wrong. And I still regret it to this day. However, not all grays and blues. There are memories that I cherish too. I joined basketball and this sport made me feel alive and willing to strive in my high school days. Till the final day, the day I got my SPM result... I did not get straight As, and the saddest part is I did not feel sad or remorse at all because I knew I did not do my best and I already expected such results.

2015-2021
I entered life as a university student at a local university, UiTM. I want to be like my father and learn what my father had learned...thus I enrolled in an engineering course. I get to know people who genuinely care and do not even flinch even if I push them away...made me realize, I was wrong. I need to hold myself accountable and care for the people who care about me. They are friends without any judgment. These people exist. And from here on, my life is full of roller coaster rides. The most wholesome years and I cherish every moment. The good and bad, the happy and sometimes sad. Oh, and I still play basketball!

2021-2023
After graduating, I got sad because I missed my chance to get First Class Hons. (Unfortunately, just 0.02 away...). Post-UiTM, I leaped and landed in Gyeongsang National University, Korea, right in the middle of the whole COVID-19 chaos. Alhamdulillah, I got offered to further my studies (although it is not my plan at all! ) and experienced many more beautiful memories from studying abroad. I met many more kind-hearted people all around the world and also met the special someone who colored the rest of my days in Korea.

2024...
Fast forward to today, I'm back in Malaysia to be close to my parents. I was away from home since I was small. Choosing between Korea and Malaysia was a tough call, but I have faith in this path. Right now, I am a PhD student at the National Defence University of Malaysia and ready to learn and make mistakes along the way.

Thank you for reading till the end! 📖💕